Well it has been a little while since I have done any kind of writing. Currently I am singing with the praise team at the church which I am very happy about, I hope to get my loud voice back but I know it takes time but hopefully will not have to wait to long for that to happen. I am signing with amazing people, they are so wonderful, they encourage me all the time and that is jut the greatest feeling in the world. Something I haven’t had to much of in my life.
It all started about a month ago I guess when our minister Mike was practicing with the praise team and he asked me if I knew the song they were singing, my answer sort of, he said either you do or you don’t, I did but not memorized which my original thought was that he wanted to know if I had it memorized! lol I went up to sing with them and of course I was nervous! I was more afraid of what he would say or think of my singing than I was anyone else at the time! lol I should know different with Mike! lol At the end I thanked him for letting me sing with them and he asked if I wanted to sing with them on Sunday, the answer yes! That was the greatest day for me. I had wanted to sing with them for a long time, but I thought Steve wanted me to stay back there with him and I knew I had to trust myself.
Sunday was wonderful as well! I was singing next to Chris, he has a beautiful voice and at one point he just smiled and I relaxed so much. Thank you Chris, I was nervous about singing next to him too! lol The wonderful ladies that I sing with all are awesome and have beautiful voices as well they also not only encourage me and give me strength but taught me how to breathe properly for singing. I love Wednesday nights when I get to sing with them and on Sunday as well. It is so nice to have great friends who are more than just great friends around you.
We are getting ready to start a new season of interviews which I am excited about! I have learned so much in the last year and healed so much in the last year it is amazing, it has been a lot of hard work but I am proud of the fact that some of bad things in life is replaced with good memories. I hope this year only gets better for us.
I still am not sure about trusting some people even those that I love dearly, they have hurt me badly before and I am afraid they will do it again but that is something to work on I guess.
Dee is helping me with writing things and I think the reason why it’s hard to write about things that happened to me is because I have dealt with those issues and they no longer bother me, if she was to read my journal she would see something different, that is where I do my screaming, tears flowing and the anger comes to surface, I write until all the hurt is gone and I can look at what happened, deal with it and toss it aside and heal and move forward. I have in fact had many authors say that is the best thing you can do. I agree with them!
Our daughter got married this month and I took her pictures for her and Steve did the video for her. She looked just like a princess but then she is always a princess to me! lol I am glad that she asked me to do that for her, it was the greatest gift for me to be able to do this for her.
We are back to doing investigations too! We have 2 already set up to go and we will also be doing a presentation in October to help others understand what is and what isn’t paranormal and how we do things. Should be interesting.